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the end of the beginning hey kids. its moving time. yes, lets pack up our troubles in our old kit bag, and smile, smile, smile. in other words, ive decided that as much as i love vodkatini, i dont want to be her any more. vodkatini was funny. she was cool, and silly, and clever, and amusing, and razor sharp sometimes. even ill admit as much. but over the last 6 weeks vodkatini has mostly been writing stuff im not happy with; in tandem vodkatini has been doing stuff im not happy with. do you understand? i dont want to be vodkatini any more. as funny as vodkatini was, she was also a bit dim. she didnt like herself very much, and did stuff because of that. vodkatini is now angry about that, and about the reasons why that was the case. she will limit her anger to this goodbye message, but she is nonetheless a bit angry. a lot angry. but dont worry, you wont have to deal with that anger. both vodkatini and i are working through this. we have a lot to deal with, but you wont be burdened with it- you dont even know me, ferchrissakes. ill be doing the dealing in my own time. suffice to say you wont be reading the diary of an angry person when we all move on. fuck, im not a slipknot fan, or a radical feminist. i am not defined by the things i am angry about. i like writing about nice things and thats what i do. thats my job. but the things i am angry about mean that i want to move on. which is what im doing. im moving on. lets say goodbye to vodkatini with kisses and hugs. she was good people. we love her. i know i do. ive got to work out some way of archiving her good-people-ness. she made me laugh my arse off on a regular basis. but recently shes been- ive been- writing stuff that i dont like, and i want to change. i want to draw a line in the sand, beyond which i can be a diffrent person. well, not a different person, just the same person doing different things. some of the time. discodamage is no doubt going to be exactly the same. but id like to think she wont be. not quite. look, *it makes sense to me, okay?!* ' movin' just keep movin, til i dont know where i am...' go to: discodamage.diaryland.com |